My Cancer Letters
( Letters written by a 29
year old guy who found out
that he has cancer
and less than a year to live )
Letter Three : To My Bully
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No greetings ,
I found out a while ago that I had cancer .
When I first heard the news , I was lost . I did not know
whether to cry or scream . Not that I did not want to , I simply did not know
!!!
I walked in the streets for hours, asking God to help me find my
way out , to get out of this unknown state. I tried to think of someone , any
person whose memory would comfort me , my mother , fiancé or best friend , but
I don't know how ….. you came up !!!
My state of lost turned into a surprise and shock. Thinking
about why you came up in my mind took me away from the cancer news . I sat on
the pavement , not caring about the huge number of people passing by me ,
looking and even starring . I couldn't notice the loud noises of the cars'
horns.
I lied on my back on the pavement , right in the middle of the
noises and the people's feet slightly kicking my hands and head by mistake.
Minutes later , I felt someone lying next to me , it was a young
girl , I guess she was twelve years old . I did not care about her , until she
stood up and looked down at me , our faces were opposite to each other.
"Are you poor ?" she asked .
I turned my face to the other side . she moved to face me .
"Are you poor ?" she asked , again !
"No , I am not "
"Then why are you sleeping in the street ? why don't you go
to your home ?"
" I cannot "
"Why ? did you do something wrong ?"
I wanted to let the girl go away , I did not know what to do , I
stayed silent for a while.
"No, but there is a bully at my school who is waiting for
me there "
"Your school ? you are too old to be at school , you need
to study harder then "
At that moment , I only heard the voice of the girl and the
tapping of the people's shoes .
All the yelling at us , the cars and everything
turned into silence.
A man kicked me hard. So I stood up and started walking , I did
not look back . After some minutes , I found a bench and sat on it .
"Now, let's talk about the bully issue "
I turned my head and got shocked by the girl who , apparently ,
has followed me . I wanted to ask her to leave me but I did not have the energy
to do it .
I sighed "Huh , , don't you have a house to go to Ms. Wise ?"
"Forget about me. " She said
Looking at my total amazement , she completed " Running
away is never the solution , you need to calm down and think about how to deal
with the bully . Sometimes you need to run out from the back door , others you
need to lie but at one point you must face him "
Suddenly , I knew the answer !!
The reason why I was thinking of you !!
YOU ARE MY CANCER !!!
My cancer is nothing but a new bully in my life .
Can I always run out of the school to avoid him ? No. I just
need the patience to know what to do .
And for the first time since knowing the news , I was able to
feel . To be afraid , terrified , sad and angry. It doesn't matter as long as I
was able to feel !!
I stood up , hugged the little girl , thanked her and went on .
My bully ,
I am writing this letter to thank you ….
Thank you for letting me know that life is not a fairy tale .
Thank you for teaching me how to be patient when facing bad people , how to accept bad
behaviors
around me as a reality that I need to deal with , not to run from .
Thank you for making me smarter , to think more and be wiser.
My bully ,
I forgive you …..
I have cancer .
Please , don't feel sorry for me , if you do , you will prove
that you have feelings , but cancer does
not , and this idea is what I need to stick to until I figure out what to do
with what is left .
Thank you .
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