She
took off her shoes and walked by the sad sea , the sand was pulling her down
trying to stop her from moving on , her tears were trying to cover her eyes so
she could not see her way , her heart was bounding so fast begging her not to move on . She refused to
listen to everything around her and decided to go on , and when she saw him ,
she wiped her tears , looked at the sand under her and kept moving towards him.
He
was so happy to see her , every time he sees her his face turns red as if it
were their first meeting . He was afraid
to walk towards her , he was sure that he will fall or do something stupid , so
he stayed in his place waiting for her.
She
stood opposite to him , and looked at his face , she looked deeply into every
single detail of it , his eyes, nose , hair and lips. She wanted to remember
everything about him before she speaks.
He
laughed and said :" What ? is it the first time you see me ?"
"No,
but it might be the last . "
"What
do you mean ?"
Tears
started falling , she looked at the sea and started talking to him .
"There
is something that you should know about me . Actually , there are many things
that you should know ."
An
angry wave hit them , he moved away quickly , but she did not , her dress became wet , he tried to move her
but she refused and kept talking while tears falling down from her eyes.
"
Remember when you told me that a person's life is like a story ? A story that
is filled with black pages that resemble the bad times he has been through and
his mistakes and white pages that represent the beautiful things that had touched their souls…. Well , you are
my only white page and the rest of my book is filled with black ones… "
He
tried to speak , but she stopped him .
"I
am not the angel that you think I am . I have done a lot of mistakes , I have
done a lot of bad things that you can never imagine . "
She
stopped for a while , took a deep breath and started talking. She told him
about everything , all the horrible things that she had done before and all the wrong decisions that she had made .
She
kept talking and talking for a long time , not looking at him , trying to
finish fast before he has the chance to say anything or react in any way. She
was horrified while telling him about all the awful , disgusting and appalling things
, but she couldn't lie anymore , death was easier than keeping all those
dreadful secrets.
When
she finished , she looked at him and said :" But when I met you , I felt
as if I was born again , a new person with a white page , or at least this is
what I tried to tell myself . The truth is my history and every mistake I have
done kept following me wherever I go , haunting me as a ghost of a dead person
who refused to leave me alone . For a short period of time I was convinced that
I shouldn't tell you , but I was sure that if I did not , it would be the
biggest mistake in my whole life, the only one that I will not be able to
forgive myself for no matter what .
She
stopped talking , he said nothing , he did
nothing .
"Please
forgive me . " She said , crying .
"You
told me also that there are orange pages in the books of our lives, those pages
that we love but can never be proud of , and I think I will be one of them ,
because I am sure that I will be the only page that you will be ashamed of .
Don't worry , I will move away , I will disappear hoping that you could find a
place in your heart for forgiveness. "
She
started walking away , sobbing in tears . She was finally relieved for letting
all out , but heart-broken knowing that she has lost the best person she had
ever met in her whole life, the person who made her dream again. Suddenly , she
felt a hand holding her , she turned around and saw him .
"
I just need time ." He said to her . "I just need time."
She
nodded and then left.
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